Hmm, let see... let me wipe off all the spider webs here..didn't update for long. why? lost interest in blogging and didnt find the correct time to do so i suppose? hmm..
Well i survived in school today despite it being the start of the week. Luckily i didnt just burn it all away by going to the BL camp for 3 days on the Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Knowing that we still have to turn up for lessons the next day after camp which is today and it only ended in the late afternoon and also having to postpone my phase test till Monday when the actual date is on Saturday morning and also not having any time spent with dearest as we hardly meet due to our distances and also finally, I'll be going away to bintan this coming weekends changed my mind of considering for the camp.
Well i survived in school today despite it being the start of the week. Luckily i didnt just burn it all away by going to the BL camp for 3 days on the Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Knowing that we still have to turn up for lessons the next day after camp which is today and it only ended in the late afternoon and also having to postpone my phase test till Monday when the actual date is on Saturday morning and also not having any time spent with dearest as we hardly meet due to our distances and also finally, I'll be going away to bintan this coming weekends changed my mind of considering for the camp.
ehehehe...and also, and also. -___-'
Even so, the time i had for my weekends wasn't enough, had phase test on Saturday morning and it turns out fine i guess? It was a messy procedure. Forgot some steps and i was still nervous as It was a bad start at first. Really bad. But again, i went through it just fine, i guess? The feeding part was ok too? Even though i already have some experience working at the hospital on my 1.1 posting, phase test really still scares me. And as usual before waiting for my turn, my palms were all sweaty and my heart was pumping like riding one crazy roller coaster ride. hehe. One thing that i notice about myself is i am always lack of confidence. Always.
My body is all aching and i didnt feel really good.
Even so, the time i had for my weekends wasn't enough, had phase test on Saturday morning and it turns out fine i guess? It was a messy procedure. Forgot some steps and i was still nervous as It was a bad start at first. Really bad. But again, i went through it just fine, i guess? The feeding part was ok too? Even though i already have some experience working at the hospital on my 1.1 posting, phase test really still scares me. And as usual before waiting for my turn, my palms were all sweaty and my heart was pumping like riding one crazy roller coaster ride. hehe. One thing that i notice about myself is i am always lack of confidence. Always.
My body is all aching and i didnt feel really good.
I met my medicine, hehe. Dearest on Sunday.. still misses him as much as ever. Unlike most people out there i can only meet dearest once a while due to our distances and so on. But that doesn't stop me from loving him more and more each day and also missing him too. His playing one of the most biggest and the most important role in my life. Though along the way i wont deny that i've hurt him countless of times
still, that never stops me from loving him. And i'm sorry for the hurt that i've caused. Thank you very much b for every single thing that u had done for me. =D i LOVE YOU too Muhammad Ilyasa.
a very short post. i shall be going off now. tata. (:
