U know, im suppose to feel relieve because exams has just ended and I'm on A month of holiday now, but i'm not.
have u ever wish u could turn back time?
ever felt as if u just wish that u didnt do that particular mistake of yours, but u just did?
the guilt feeling inside you. the regret. the awkward feeling. well, i do.
& u know what? all kinds of emotion is gushing inside me right now, i don't know. , i didn't mean to hurt u as bad as this. one thing for sure i did learn a lot from this. u know, no matter how hard i try to be the best, somehow, deep down i know i just cant. I didnt say that i wanna be perfect. No one can. Just the best maybe. One who knows how to take care of you and doesn't hurt you as often as this, who just fit your criteria i guess?. it wasn't at all my intention to hurt you, i never want this to happen. Not to this extend.
No matter how much i tried to explain, i know that all those just doesn't makes sense to u. I can't blame u. I know its totally my fault. sigh, right now i'm feeling as useless as ever. deep down i always know u deserve someone better,much better. but on the other hand, i want to hold on, BADLY. But i can't be selfish can i?. Gosh, i just can't think straight i guess.
It's all confusing. I don't know what i need to do.
Things are akward now, and it's all because of me..
because of my stupid mistake fr not telling. i'm through with arguments. guess i didn't want to create any of it anymore, or at-least try my best not to hurt your feelings, i just choose to keep it from u, but i didn't think about the consequences if u were to find it out on your own, of course that be a lot more worst. and right now it is.
Is Allah testing us on this holy month? i don't know?...............
have u ever wish u could turn back time?
ever felt as if u just wish that u didnt do that particular mistake of yours, but u just did?
the guilt feeling inside you. the regret. the awkward feeling. well, i do.
& u know what? all kinds of emotion is gushing inside me right now, i don't know. , i didn't mean to hurt u as bad as this. one thing for sure i did learn a lot from this. u know, no matter how hard i try to be the best, somehow, deep down i know i just cant. I didnt say that i wanna be perfect. No one can. Just the best maybe. One who knows how to take care of you and doesn't hurt you as often as this, who just fit your criteria i guess?. it wasn't at all my intention to hurt you, i never want this to happen. Not to this extend.
No matter how much i tried to explain, i know that all those just doesn't makes sense to u. I can't blame u. I know its totally my fault. sigh, right now i'm feeling as useless as ever. deep down i always know u deserve someone better,much better. but on the other hand, i want to hold on, BADLY. But i can't be selfish can i?. Gosh, i just can't think straight i guess.
It's all confusing. I don't know what i need to do.
Things are akward now, and it's all because of me..
because of my stupid mistake fr not telling. i'm through with arguments. guess i didn't want to create any of it anymore, or at-least try my best not to hurt your feelings, i just choose to keep it from u, but i didn't think about the consequences if u were to find it out on your own, of course that be a lot more worst. and right now it is.
Is Allah testing us on this holy month? i don't know?...............
